The good news is that I'm still at the same job! I'm still the reservations coordinator at Young at Art Museum. It's been about 4 months. This is good.
As for my body...well..I have not really gained weight at all. BUT I seriously have not worked out in MONTHS, and my diet has been inconsistent. It hasn't been terrible, but I've lost so much of my initial drive. I guess this is normal. But there is hope.
I work with a girl named Lisa who happens to be a personal trainer, who is very, very sweet and has agreed to train me. Lisa is very toned and eats about 3000 calories a day to gain muscle. She wants to be in one of those weight lifting competitions. I love it! Maybe she can save me.
Current weight: 136.5
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Sunday
I had no idea I hadn't posted since August 20th. Here's what's been going on.
I've completed my three month probation at work. Work is good. It has it's ups and downs.
My sister can't hold a job to save her life. That's not good.
My bought a "new" car that I don't have yet. Noah fronted the payment for me so I can pay him back.
As for my weight and my body...I am currently 133.5. My weight has been staying within the 133-136 zone for a while. It won't budge. But I haven't been eating as well I should, so I am grateful my weight has stayed so low.
I've completed my three month probation at work. Work is good. It has it's ups and downs.
My sister can't hold a job to save her life. That's not good.
My bought a "new" car that I don't have yet. Noah fronted the payment for me so I can pay him back.
As for my weight and my body...I am currently 133.5. My weight has been staying within the 133-136 zone for a while. It won't budge. But I haven't been eating as well I should, so I am grateful my weight has stayed so low.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Thursday
The honeymoon stage of my job is over. Now that I've been trained to do everything, I'm expected to do everything. I could see, from the very beginning, it was the kind of environment where the budget was low and the employees were being stretched beyond their capacity, to make up for the lack of staff. When that happens, the employees get resentful while management is happy that they're saving a buck.
While I like the place in general, I cannot stay here indefinitely. Especially not for what I'm getting paid. I have a friend who is the director of admissions at a college, and I know he's hiring, so hopefully I can get a job as an admissions rep and make an actually decent salary.
While I like the place in general, I cannot stay here indefinitely. Especially not for what I'm getting paid. I have a friend who is the director of admissions at a college, and I know he's hiring, so hopefully I can get a job as an admissions rep and make an actually decent salary.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Sunday Summary
Weight: 133.5.
I haven't seen the 133's in a while! But...I'm convinced this is because I had to take Immodium yesterday, which always dehydrates me a little. BUT...I have upped my exercise routine in the last week. I dragged my old exercise bench out of the terrace and am using it for chest exercises. I need to look back at my blog to see exactly how long, but I've maintained a good weight for quite a while...with no cardio. I'm not anti-cardio, but since I've canceled my gym membership, it's harder to get in the cardio I used to.
I haven't seen the 133's in a while! But...I'm convinced this is because I had to take Immodium yesterday, which always dehydrates me a little. BUT...I have upped my exercise routine in the last week. I dragged my old exercise bench out of the terrace and am using it for chest exercises. I need to look back at my blog to see exactly how long, but I've maintained a good weight for quite a while...with no cardio. I'm not anti-cardio, but since I've canceled my gym membership, it's harder to get in the cardio I used to.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Sunday Summary
Weight: 134.
I am still stuck in the weekend rut of eating bad food. I balance out by eating well 4 days a week, but still...my fitness level has just plateaued. Yes, I've said this before. I just haven't done anything about it yet. I have been at my job for 6 weeks, and it has taken most of my energy. I know this is not uncommon, but I want to overcome it. Right now, my body is fine, but I want it to be more than fine. And until I change my routine, it will stay the same.
I am still stuck in the weekend rut of eating bad food. I balance out by eating well 4 days a week, but still...my fitness level has just plateaued. Yes, I've said this before. I just haven't done anything about it yet. I have been at my job for 6 weeks, and it has taken most of my energy. I know this is not uncommon, but I want to overcome it. Right now, my body is fine, but I want it to be more than fine. And until I change my routine, it will stay the same.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Tuesday
Ironically enough, after my last post, my car died. While I decide what to do, my dad has been letting me use his car for work.
My boss, the crazy one, just got fired yesterday, though. That was a sad day. I have no idea why she was fired after being there 7 years, and from what I've learned at my last job, the less I know, the better.
My weight is in the 134.5-135.5 zone. I haven't been doing any cardio for months, only strength-training. I eat very well Monday-Thursday, and not as well Friday-Sunday. However, my weight has maintained it's balance.
Lately, I have received some really nice compliments about my body. I don't exactly see what other people are seeing, but a compliment is a compliment!
My boss, the crazy one, just got fired yesterday, though. That was a sad day. I have no idea why she was fired after being there 7 years, and from what I've learned at my last job, the less I know, the better.
My weight is in the 134.5-135.5 zone. I haven't been doing any cardio for months, only strength-training. I eat very well Monday-Thursday, and not as well Friday-Sunday. However, my weight has maintained it's balance.
Lately, I have received some really nice compliments about my body. I don't exactly see what other people are seeing, but a compliment is a compliment!
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Life Coming Into Alignment?
I haven't talked about meditation in a while, and I think the time is right to do it now.
The purpose of meditation was always blurry to me until I finally saw why it was necessary. I have been a long-held believer of Abraham-Hicks, and I think I may be finally getting it:
When you make an effort to clear your mind for an extended period of time (I try to meditate for at least 15 minutes), and/or when you only focus your thoughts genuinely and positively for an extended period of time (again, at least 15 minutes is sufficient), you open a portal to your subconscious mind. The portal is open when you are asleep, too, but it becomes more powerful when you can tap into your subconscious while you are awake. The theory is that your dominant thoughts (which, let's be honest, are usually negative-- ranging from envy, hatred, criticism) are what's blocking your wants from being fulfilled.
Since it is impossible to monitor your thoughts all day, this is where meditating comes in. Personally, I am very critical. Critical of myself, critical of others. My pattern of being overly-critical is so woven into my personality, it would be futile to try to "catch" my critical thoughts. When I notice myself doing it in excess, I stop, but the constant internal critical dialogue is mostly a subconsicous reflex.
But back to why meditation is important.
This past week, I have been meditating. When I find it too boring to sit and think about nothing, I do different forms of meditation. One form I do is a type of Buddhist meditation. I think about all the good things I want for myself, then all the good things I want for a loved one, then all the good things I want for a neutral acquaintance, then all the good things I want for someone I don't like. The key is to be genuine and not just think things just to fulfill the meditation. You can't be dishonest with your subconscious.
Another way of tapping into your subconsicous is, what Abraham calls, a "rampage of appreciation". This is where you start listing everything positive you can about your life, which is supposed to make your vibration rise. When your vibration is high, you are allowing more good things to come your way.
This week, a few things happened when the mediation started. When I sat down and started meditating a few nights ago, my sister got a phone call from a job and got hired. That was good news for both of us, because it meant less of a financial strain on me.
Last night, I found a pair of jeans in my sister's room that are too big on her and fit me perfectly. Getting a new pair of jeans has been on my mind, since I wear jeans to work, and I'm SO hard to fit.
Today, during some downtime at work, I started making a list of all the things in my life that made me happy. Later that day, one of my supervisors came by my office and gave me high praise for something I did, followed by an unprecedented hug. I have only been at the job for a month.
My car ride home today, and most of the day, my mind has been on getting a $14 Urban Decay black eyeliner pencil from Sephora, but I kept thinking that was too expensive. When I got home, my sister had a huge Sephora bag on the dining room chair. Her friends had gotten her an "Eye Deluxe Sampler" box for her birthday. It did have an Urban Decay product, not the eyeliner, but there was black eyeliner in the box. Close enough!
So, I will continue to meditate if this is the result.
The purpose of meditation was always blurry to me until I finally saw why it was necessary. I have been a long-held believer of Abraham-Hicks, and I think I may be finally getting it:
When you make an effort to clear your mind for an extended period of time (I try to meditate for at least 15 minutes), and/or when you only focus your thoughts genuinely and positively for an extended period of time (again, at least 15 minutes is sufficient), you open a portal to your subconscious mind. The portal is open when you are asleep, too, but it becomes more powerful when you can tap into your subconscious while you are awake. The theory is that your dominant thoughts (which, let's be honest, are usually negative-- ranging from envy, hatred, criticism) are what's blocking your wants from being fulfilled.
Since it is impossible to monitor your thoughts all day, this is where meditating comes in. Personally, I am very critical. Critical of myself, critical of others. My pattern of being overly-critical is so woven into my personality, it would be futile to try to "catch" my critical thoughts. When I notice myself doing it in excess, I stop, but the constant internal critical dialogue is mostly a subconsicous reflex.
But back to why meditation is important.
This past week, I have been meditating. When I find it too boring to sit and think about nothing, I do different forms of meditation. One form I do is a type of Buddhist meditation. I think about all the good things I want for myself, then all the good things I want for a loved one, then all the good things I want for a neutral acquaintance, then all the good things I want for someone I don't like. The key is to be genuine and not just think things just to fulfill the meditation. You can't be dishonest with your subconscious.
Another way of tapping into your subconsicous is, what Abraham calls, a "rampage of appreciation". This is where you start listing everything positive you can about your life, which is supposed to make your vibration rise. When your vibration is high, you are allowing more good things to come your way.
This week, a few things happened when the mediation started. When I sat down and started meditating a few nights ago, my sister got a phone call from a job and got hired. That was good news for both of us, because it meant less of a financial strain on me.
Last night, I found a pair of jeans in my sister's room that are too big on her and fit me perfectly. Getting a new pair of jeans has been on my mind, since I wear jeans to work, and I'm SO hard to fit.
Today, during some downtime at work, I started making a list of all the things in my life that made me happy. Later that day, one of my supervisors came by my office and gave me high praise for something I did, followed by an unprecedented hug. I have only been at the job for a month.
My car ride home today, and most of the day, my mind has been on getting a $14 Urban Decay black eyeliner pencil from Sephora, but I kept thinking that was too expensive. When I got home, my sister had a huge Sephora bag on the dining room chair. Her friends had gotten her an "Eye Deluxe Sampler" box for her birthday. It did have an Urban Decay product, not the eyeliner, but there was black eyeliner in the box. Close enough!
So, I will continue to meditate if this is the result.
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